Wow,.how time flies.

It’s been a while since my last post,. and when I really looked at it,..I was amazed to see just how long,.. scary!!!

I’ve had to put a few of my loves on hold, while I concentrate all my efforts into caring for my loves at home. Mothers (and fathers) I’m sure can relate to times during their child rearing years when there never seems to be enough time to ‘do it all’.  

Personal interests and activities we once enjoyed and had abundent time for tend to get squished and pushed aside,. then slip right down the bottom of the pile, and you’re too tired to do them anyway if you ever got a reasonable sized chunk of time to partake.

For several years I tried to ‘do it all’,..grabbing a few minutes here and there between loads of washing and running the kids around in the car,..to do a bit more on that bracelet, or make one bead etc,.but it was frustrating beyond belief trying to do these things in minute parcels of time.

I faced a constant stuggle with this,. and even desperately wished that I was a normal mother, who was content to rear her children and not have any other time demanding interests.  I really wished I was born without a creative bone in my body (most of the people I know around me are like that and they are perfectly happy), and that I never had the urge to be creative again. Getting the sudden urge to whip up some nice lampwork beads based on the jacket one of the kid’s teacher’s was wearing, but know it will never happen because you wont get a chance to do it any time soon in the next month or three.  Or the sudden urge to try and capture in watercolour the streams of rain coming out of those amazing sun lit clouds that I pointed out to the kids on the way home from school because it seemed to me to be a fantastic challenge to paint something that in its natural state, looked so unnatural and as I explained to the kids, that even if I were to paint that exactly like it was,.my painting would look wrong because the subject looked wrong and like they were painted badly in the sky.

I decided to stop fighting it and accept that there are just times in ones life when we have to put other things aside for a while, and pick them up again when time allows. So having done that,. I was able to remove the frustration of always looking but never quite finding that minute to spare to do something arty in piece meal chunks. Creativity was sadly stifled anyway,. it’s not like a tap you can just turn on because you have five minutes spare between chores,. then switch off because the kids are grumpy and wanting to be fed again *gasp*.

So, the kids have taken all of me, over the past year pretty much and they have all benefitted from having a very attentive mother,. and I admit it has been nice concentrating fully on them for that time. I did promise myself however, that when they start back at school this year,.. I will try again to ‘do it all’,..well at least let a little creativity back in . 

If all goes to plan,. I hope to write a few more tutes this year,..and hopefully begin one within the next week or two. I plan to fire up the Bobcat torch and play with glass again soon too,.. and I have a nagging urge to dribble some paint onto some watercolour paper. Nothing special,..just wanna mess around and play.

But slowly does it,.. one thing at a time,..I don’t want to go back to how things were.

Just want to say hi to everyone and hope you’re all happy and well.

Cheers,

Remy